You know, I might be okay with you forgetting my text, hell, even with you talking to them.

God damn it. Talking to all the right people. Wonderfuckingful. because you talked to me. that means i was the right person. no. i was one of those right people. i'm just another one of your friends. i hate this. GOD. FUCKING. DAMN. IT.



I don't even get it anymore. what thefuck is wrong with me? why am i like this? it's because 1. you don't answer my text, hell, i'm fine with that. 2. you have your phone, you didn't care enough to check that you didn't respond. 3. I was just one of those people that you talked to today. what we talked about, whatever. it didn't mean anything. or what i can gather. I just don't get it.

I feel like i'm losing you. I'm afraid of losing you. I'm afraid of losing what it was going to be. I afraid that when you don't text me back, i'm losing you, that when you group me in with all of those 'people' i'm nothing special. i don't want to be just another one of those people. god damn it.