It's important, so God damn important, to remember, that she may not be talking about you. You might not be that guy. Just know that. That she may not feel the same. It could easily be someone else.

"its so easy for me to talk to him. and i trust him. he makes me laugh a lot. he's smart. stuff like that. for whatever reason he's the first guy thats actually even grabbed some of my interest in a long time."

oh god. because that could be about me. but it could also be someone else. Keep it in mind, child. Keep it in mind. Don't let this get to you. Don't. It could easily be someone else. There's not much that I know it could be. But it sounds like me. Don't let it get to you. Just keep an open mind. She could very well potentially like you. But she could not. Don't get your hopes up, boy. Just don't. It's easier this way. Just keep your feelings, and keep doing what you're doing. She said that she's always the one starting the conversations. Should i do anything? Should I talk to her more? Well established friendship. This could be about me. It could. Just be careful. Keep in mind that she may not be talking about you, and someone else. For God's sake, please, keep that in mind.

And you, if it is me, please. please. please. don't let me down.