I realized. Why do I do that to myself? To get attention? Is that it? Because if it is. Then I will definitely stop. I don't want to do that to myself, if the sole purpose of it is to receive attention. I always swore to myself that I would never do that. A lot of the stuff I do, is because I want the attention. God. Damn. That is so pathetic. I hate pathetic people. A lot of the stuff I do, is pathetic. A lot of it. It's so stupid. I am going to need to stop wanting all of this attention. Stop drawing it to myself. I really need to stop it. It's immature. I need to grow up. And if I do that to myself for the attention. I am going to stop.